There is a saying, I don't know its source, that goes like this: "If you don't want a place at the table you've reserved a place for yourself on the menu."
What table? What menu?
If you attend Twelve Step meetings, you know what table. Recovering addicts gather around those tables and sit in those meeting circles three, five, seven, nine times a week because that's where experience, strength, and hope reside. That is where recovery is served.
What menu? It is addiction's menu, addiction's plan for the remainder of your life. "We are people in the grip of a continuing and progressive disease whose ends are always the same: jails, institutions, and death." (p.3, Narcotics Anonymous, 5th Ed., WSO Van Nuys CA, 1988)
Don't be a slow learner. Get yourself a place at the table.